VentWhy? Why do I constantly hold onto the past?Vent by Usagi-Okami
Why do I constantly torment myself with what could have been
What almost was and what I did have to only have it shattered, torn away and erased?
Why do I allow my heart and mind to be haunted and tormented with these longings I know I can never have?
Why do I cling so tightly? Why do I keep holding it tighter and tighter the more it pierces my heart and causes me pain?
Why can't I let go? Finally let it fall away?
It just hurts.
But I can't. All I do, is lock it away and push it aside. Sitting. Hoping. Waiting. For what? I don't even know any more.
Sometimes, I do manage to forget. Sometimes, I place aside the cause of my pain and allow myself a bit of freedom.
But the moment I try to enjoy something, it some how reminds of the past I placed aside. The whats if. The almost. The life that was.
And again...I grip it. Letting it cut me deep and allowing my happiness to bleed from me.
I've hurt myself. To the point that I can't even fully
Beautifully sleepless nightsAudrey always found herself awake at this hour lately. It wasn't for anything bad this time. Not like on Halloween, or after she watches a spooky movie or reads a scary story. No, nothing like that at all. She was just, well, it's hard to explain. She felt too in awe. At peace. Complete, to sleep. She just had to sit up and think. Stare. She just had to take in everything in her life. She would stare at the still sleeping figure of her husband, trying to keep quiet, as he sleeps lightly. Her gaze would shift to the spot between them and she'd smile at their young daughter. She had crawled into bed with them, and that was perfectly okay. She leaned over, giving them both kisses as she slowly and carefully slipped out of bed, being sure not to wake them.Beautifully sleepless nights by Usagi-Okami
She walked through the rest of the house now. Her home. Their home. The family pets where in the living room, all sleeping. Sparky on TreeTrunk's back. Cindy on the couch with Joesph. Romeo and Excalibur swimming softly in their t
Audrey appName: Audrey DinaAudrey app by Usagi-Okami
Species & details: Audino
Body type & skin color: She's fair and light skinned, with a fair complexion. She's short and chubby, but with the right female curves.
Hair style & color: She has short, pink hair with cream colored tips that curls upwards toward her face, framing her chubby features well.
Markings: She's a bit of a klutz so it's not odd to see a bruise or two on her knees or elbows, if she forgot to treat it. But she does have a rather big scar that goes across her back. She doesn't talk about how she got it.
Ears/tail/etc details: She has the traditional audino ears. Pink with cream colored under half. She also has curled extensions on the underside of her ears. They're what give her that sharp hearing of hers. She also has a cute white bunny like tail.
Clothing details: She wears a white baby doll dress with a
Promise mePromise me that I'll always have youPromise me by Usagi-Okami
In some way shape or from
Promise I'll always have something of you
Memories to keep me warm
Promise me I'll always see you
Or at the least hear your voice
Promise me that you'll be there to catch me
When life makes me feel there's no other choice.
I know it's a lot to ask of you
To try and keep in touch
The world is so harsh today
And sometimes we just have no luck
Sometimes we have no choice but to let go and drift apart
Watching as loved ones fade, leaving a harsh pain in our heart
I know it's a selfish request, asking you to stay by my side
Just for the sake of my own weak heart
When you and I know both know for a fact
That life will stop at nothing to try and tear us apart
and if such a thing does happen
Where we just might have to say good bye
To this my dear friend, I promise you
I wont forget till the day I die